Wednesday, December 3, 2008

ME, MY PROJECT AND MY PROJECT PARTNER...Part I

2008 is a long year. Many things happened in this year and are still undone. There were lots of stuffs occurred, which were better than expected and at the same time too many which I still laughed at myself recalling them. I finished my graduation this year. So that means, for sure, 4 things…

• I either had to work or study further (in my case, I opted for working and which turned out something disastrous in the days to come)
• I had to part with my good friends who were actually the best… be it my room-mates or college mates. I have to thank each and every friend I met during my college life because in some way or the other they’ve helped me out just being the way they are. 
• I had to stop seeing (or rather looking at) a gorgeous girl from our college whom I never had this thing called ENERGY to talk to her. I wish if I could at least say hi to her, but talking to girls has always been like having a dinner full with strictly DOSA and SAMBHAR…just couldn’t do it.
• Lastly and most importantly, finishing one’s engineering life simply implied he/she had finished his/her FINAL YEAR PROJECT. And this part, I don’t know whether I should remember it in the long run. This blog is all about my final year project. Hope this drenches me off all those memories I shared with my project guide, Mr. Ravindran. ( Actually his full name is Prof. R. Ravindran) 
How many times I’ve corrected his name while noting down some points upon being dictated…!!! 

I don’t know where to start this blog. Somewhere in the late 2007 (I was in 7th semester) I remember our CR Nagesh. (good at studies, enjoyment, talking, playing but somewhat like the character Alok in ‘5 point someone’..lolz..) He, on being asked by Ravindran sir, told him that I was one of those good students (screw Nagesh..!!) and our Prof. was looking for a prey like me. Well, that’s all how it started. 

I forgot to introduce my project partners. He had topped our dept. many times and has this cool & composed nature. Everyone calls him, “SRIDIP SARKAR.” He is right now working in AIG as software engineer. Next is a complete dude, speaking fast, learning fast and getting bored of any subject very fast. He has some 2-3 months left to become an NRI, pursuing his M.Tech in USA.(he must be enjoying like hell there with all his dream girls). We call him, “V. MURALIDHARAN”
Not knowing of the hard fate waiting for us, ours was a happy group of 3 guys who in the long run would be trying to run too fast without knowing we had already fallen unto a quicksand which, everyone calls…Ravindran. He, with those popping eyes, let us believe that he was the best guy in the industry and that doing the project under him would certainly prove worthy. 

About our project guide, well he is that type of person who is always restless. He is brainy of course but too intelligent to level all the loads of life. He is still single and that sometimes freaked us out when we were doing project. He asks you questions which you are never easy to give answers. He lets others believe he’s the best.(hell, we had to cop up with that act all the time) And lastly, he doesn’t know he was always being laughed at. You will get to know more about him in the sentences to follow. 

His advice was... “At least come for the cycle test. Leave the answer sheet blank if you don’t know anything. I will take care of the rest.” And ya frankly, we all got very good internals except for the external where we got screwed badly.

We started doing our project in the month of September itself when everyone didn’t even bother identifying their project partners or project names. Every time we met him, a feeling that something wrong would happen to us, always encompassed us and to tell you, something worse always happened. We had to deal with him almost everyday and each day was a different day for us fearing more and more whether we did a mistake by letting him become our project guide. At the end of the year, our hardware was ready to everyone’s surprise and a promise that the documentation would be done by him and which, to our belief, was never done at the truest sense. After the semester exam, we went to our homes which he was strictly against of. But, thanks to Murali, his lie was a perfect one. We had a total stress free vacation but it wasn't long before the real misfortunes took a serious turn in torturing us like it never did to any one.

to be cont...

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Today's feelings..!!

Today was World AIDS DAY and a birthday of one of my friends' girlfriend. As I'm writing this, the clock is showing 6:21 in the morning. I think I haven't slept for the whole night. Then I looked back what I did yesterday and I found it rather ordinary. The only peculiar stuff was the picture I saw yesterday when my friend James sent it to me. I still could tell the way my heart pounded looking at the person of my past...so vividly calling me yet again to get drowned. Listening to my own state of palpitation, I wasn't sure what actually was going through my mind that moment. I was nervous,shy, my eyes popped out, but most importantly I found a curve in my face which was equally astonishing. There was no reason why I should be feeling that way considering the fact that I had tried many a time to forget that picture and yet, there was also no reason why I shouldn't be feeling that way because I believe that a person like her, with that huge character, would never stop of being the same simple girl a she used to be and I, on the other hand, did never dislike her. There have been a lot of past between the day we met and this present moment and yet,the whole colossal time could never stand in front of this emotion. I'm not hoping of what I did when I first saw her but this zeal of wishing her to be happy always shall never cease from this shallow heart. The person who has been both at the bottom of the ocean and the tip of a mountain knows more about the beauty of this world than anyone. I have never been to any of this place but I believe that I could have the same vision as that knowledge-full guy if i happen to be at those places. Same way, I always believe I could spell the word Happiness more carefully and beautifully than anyone else if I happen to be the luckiest guy her heart needs to lean on.
There is always a time in everyone's life when he thinks he is making the right decision and that nobody could tell anything to him. Sometimes, that part comes to you while framing career, or while handling a situation in family.... but most of the time it comes to you when you think love is in the next step. And, even though you thought it a right thing to do, you would end up doing it again and again. I'm not sure whether this very present moment is that defining moment. All I'm wishing is if it is, then I would never want a second moment to occur to me.
I'm in a fix....!!!